HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

HAPPY 57th BIRTHDAY LAO PA! :DDD

you know i love you so much! < 3 haha may God bless you in everything especially your health!

i hope that you have more more years of joy and laughter :D and thank you so much for spoiling me with toys and always being there for me :')

XOXO

honestly, i think i look very fake in this pic but nvm. this is like one of the only pics i have with him :( new resolution! take more pics with papa! :D

i want the TOP face printed shirt! :P

love is not love without sacrifice

i went to praise kids yesterday and something really hit me. we were sharing about one thing that we want to give God praise for. at the moment, i couldnt really think of one because everything i am now is by God's grace. i mean if it werent for Him, i wouldnt be here at this time, place and situation. so i finally decided to thank Him for all the experiences He gave me. i thank Him for putting me in my family, my mother giving birth to me in a particular year, in this place. well if you guys think about it, if we were to be born even slightly with a different time, we wouldnt be able to meet each other now. we might even be strangers. so yea, without the camp over 8 years ago, i wouldnt have been in Praise Kids leading worship and smiling every time a kid comes to give me a hug. so yea, i feel that now im really falling away from God. like seriously i feel like im getting more and more evil? so yea from tomorrow onwards, im gonna be nicer to my friends ;) oh yea, one thing is for sure is that im really thankful to God for helping me out every time with my studies. like seriously, when i see my friends studying, i think to myself that im never gonna be that good. honestly, i never study at home if its not the exams season and i dont study that hard. but it seems as though God helps me everytime i sit for an exam, esp malay. im really not good in it but apparently i get good grades. i dont go for tuition nor do i read any malay things. i find it weird and funny at the same time. but yea thank God!

today, a korean pastor came to preach in my church. to be honest, i couldnt understand at all what he was saying. haha thank God there was a translator XD he said many true things that people nowadays never really realise. we tend to want things so badly that we forget to enjoy life. life is just too short to work hard only for fame and money. its like our lives are programmed to what the world wants us to be. we were taught that life is just to study, work and have a family. yea reality check.

this girl is Natasha ;) shes in my class now. my kids last year have gone to Kindie 2 :( yea so if you realise, shes actually crying. Efim, if you guys remember him, pushed her so she came crying. shes really adorable and once i took my camera to take pics of her, she started smiling :)

yea i was laughing like crazy when i was seeing the kids act. i bet you guys can figure out whats the scene ;) well if you dont know, the ones with bandanas and shades are bad kids and the one with glasses is the good kid who is being bullied.

XOXO. going back to youtube with teee ohhh peee! :DDD

HIGH HIGH, IM SO HIGH

chung, chung! check out his eye brows *moves eyebrows up and down

haha gosh i think i like bad boys now. i guess its like i know that they will never be true so i wont get myself too deep? haha ;D its like going online and checking out youtube is my everyday thing :) no more fb and mails. i guess people do change. okay before this gets emo, check out TOP! :DDD

it always starts with its my fault

it weird and funny sometimes that i have so many things to blog about but when my fingers touch the board, it gets stuck. haha mind me! XD AHHH i wish i can go watch Big Show one day ;D and see TOP? :DD

the way they take pics is so cool 8) look at GD!

THANK YOU SO MUCH MONKEY FOR THE POPCORN! :DDDD

so sad, war starts tomorrow again. sigh, no more youtube, no more korean series, no more GD and TOP :(( no more TOP! :((

ready, set, go

;)

so yea i just sent an scholarship application today ;) AHHHHH i feel a little relax now cause at least that app is done :) my mom so kan jong than me that she nag me the whole way (kinda). yea and she spent a whole lot of money just to go translate, certify and pos laju my application. seriously, it takes hundreds to do it. and some more this is just one application. oh well :) if you guys wanna apply too dont hesitate to ask me keh? ;D spent the whole day watching korean series and its seriously getting to me. i keep thinking how hot TOP is. seriously, every time i watch a video of him, it makes me go AHHHHHH O.O *snap out of it kim!

haha i miss holidays with my sisters :( but i miss my friends who are there even more! but its okay cause they're coming back tomorrow! :DDD

JIBE GAJIMA

TOP is sooo HOT! :DDD his bad boy image, smirk and deep voice makes me go AHHHHH HIGH HIGH! ;P haha i think hes the only guy who looks good with white hair XD

hallyu wave.

this post is pretty obscene so viewers discretion is advised :)

korean pop is really getting into my head ;D AHHHHHHHH

hot guys staring in series, hot guys singing, hot guys dancing :D

currently watching Paradise Ranch. super oh the series :DDD haha and ChangMin also very good looking. *drools

every time i see Kik Wang, he kinda reminds me of Max. seriously, they kinda look alike XD

initially i didnt really like mblaq but then when i saw them performing "again" in music bank and Lee Joon when hes dancing, AHHHHHH *heart melts

last but certainly not least! MIN HO :) i dream of meeting him one day and saying cho a hey yo < 3

waking up is a blessing.

AHHHH lifes good ;) waking up late and having the freedom to watch anything i like until whenever i want. haha yessss but im missing my loves :( make sure you guys have fun there and fly like a G6! ;) got hot guys must tell me :DDD

a movie and sushi tei before the leave. after exam stress relieve too ;)

< 3 this is love ;)

stay strong.

i wish to go on another holiday with you guys ;) i miss those times. my mom said this year is to study hard (no holidays) so i can get scholarships. i don't study hard enough? sigh, i wanna act dead again. feels like i'm alive too long.

pictures turn the rainbow upside down.

imma gonna start posting pics that remind me of fun and love to motivate me from time to time :D reminds me of how much i love taking pics :D

ciao!

dont you just wanna smile when you see pics that make you happy? :)

smile all you can :)

it feels like the war has just started, believe or not, even though the exams are just over, the stress is still there. sigh. growing up, i see a lot of my family members and friends grow up, finish high school, get into a uni and then work. ive always thought to myself that im only gonna experience those stressful and fan things in the future, just not now. it seems as though it was yesterday i said those words but years have passed. the only thing that is stressing me now is to get extremely good grades so that my parents wouldnt have to worry about getting me into a good uni. to get good scholarships. honestly, my mom told me that if i didnt get a scholarship, my education would end. not to say i love being a nerd and studying all the time, i mean i wanna be a successful person in the future. someone who earns a good living. so yea i have never seen my mom so enthusiastic about my education before. getting me application forms and sending them asap. after the three days of hell, i think this was the worst exam ive done. sigh, i feel disappointed? have you guys ever thought about going back to being a kid again? never having to worry about anything, showing true feelings and just care free? its ironic cause we wanted to grow up asap when were at that age. when did life become so real?so yea bernard, smile all you can :)

head prefect, worship leader, tuitions, studies, excellence.

sigh expectations are too high. theres always this pressure on me to "must" do well. people dont get what it means to worry that maybe this one time i might just fail. fail to please myself, and worse everyone around me especially my parents. stretching to the extend that its reaching its breaking point. breaking out. phobia. hopes and expectations are raised too high. God help me.