i hate good byes

 life has been hard and changes are inevitable. life still needs to go on. 

in a blink of an eye, i lost the guy i love the most, left school and disappointed everyone. im still holding on, dont judge cause im gonna be transparent. 

my last English presentation.

my love came back and brought back my smile. i couldn't thank her enough :)

my last day in school. my supportive president.

im gonna miss my good looking physics lecturer, how strict and cute he gets when hes embarrassed.

im gonna miss everyone and everything in school.

im gonna miss all of this :')

im gonna miss how angry and abusive Alvin gets, how quiet and cunning Kelvin is, how Alyssa is when shes angry, how slow Hyun Ju eats, how much complaining Leong does and how all the guys play games during lectures. and of course all times we go out and laugh the whole day.

im gonna miss all the free drinks i get :)

im gonna miss my love, Hyun Ju :/ dont cry because of me. promise me that you will be happy all the time and eat. dont let me worry whether you will faint cause you have one less person to slap you. and do well in the exams. come visit me too. remember that i love you so so much and im gonna think about you all the time.

to Leong, im sorry for all the hurts ive made to you. i didnt mean to do that. if i stayed on, im sure im gonna hurt myself more and hurt everyone around me. you mean a lot to me so leaving is the best. you are definitely a great friend :) remember your promise to do well in your exams. im gonna miss everything about you and of course, you. sorry.

the most valuable thing to me right now, memories :) im gonna bring this everywhere i go.

no i don't hate him. i don't believe in hating the person you love and who used to love you. 

i have great memories with you, memories that i will never forget. you made me happy, the happiest girl in the world. i don't blame you for hurting me, cause i'm sure you were hurt too. maybe i was not good enough, i'm sorry. i wish the best for you. and be close friends. the hurt will slowly fade away and trust will regain itself. i admit, i do miss you. be the top in your class and make sure you become a great engineer. take care of yourself, must eat and don't always sleep in class. don't drink too much and eat too much maggi. love yourself cause other people love you.