it feels like the war has just started, believe or not, even though the exams are just over, the stress is still there. sigh. growing up, i see a lot of my family members and friends grow up, finish high school, get into a uni and then work. ive always thought to myself that im only gonna experience those stressful and fan things in the future, just not now. it seems as though it was yesterday i said those words but years have passed. the only thing that is stressing me now is to get extremely good grades so that my parents wouldnt have to worry about getting me into a good uni. to get good scholarships. honestly, my mom told me that if i didnt get a scholarship, my education would end. not to say i love being a nerd and studying all the time, i mean i wanna be a successful person in the future. someone who earns a good living. so yea i have never seen my mom so enthusiastic about my education before. getting me application forms and sending them asap. after the three days of hell, i think this was the worst exam ive done. sigh, i feel disappointed? have you guys ever thought about going back to being a kid again? never having to worry about anything, showing true feelings and just care free? its ironic cause we wanted to grow up asap when were at that age. when did life become so real?so yea bernard, smile all you can :)
