heyyyy ;) i figured i have some time in my hands now before Homes so i shall blog. since next week is like full blast cause of 3 papers, i dont think i will be blogging that soon. haha anyways just wanna blog  about how life has been after 5 months in KL (OMG ITS ALREADY 5 MONTHS??). yeap well you must be expecting me to say that time flies, its 5 months (SERIOUSLY 5 MONTHSSSS??) since i left everything behind. LOL except my family. and yea minus out the 5 days i went back. haha nope, these 5 months have been long to me. i count everyday the days till im back. i constantly miss my parents, thinking how much i missed out at home. i wouldnt be able to see my parents grow old. call me old fashioned but yea, i wouldnt wanna come back home one day and realise WOW my parents are getting old and i dont even realise it. missing out everything back home, friends, girl friends, high school, food, home, bed and jogging. nature as well. erm i just wanna share something. i realise that in life, we play many roles. like in a movie, we might be playing this character in this chapter of life, another totally opposite character the next. like in your love life, you might be playing the girl who nobody realises, then the next youre the one everyone wants. the girl who has it all becomes the girl who has crushes someone she isnt suppose to. life is unpredictable eih? living here made me think a lot. yeap it did. and living here, everything is so complicated. people here are complicated. i decided to just not think so much about it and do what im supposed to. i may be accused of something im not, but hey if it gets to me, then its just wasting my time and energy fighting. not worth.

im gonna write more when i get back! looks like i took longer to write this. LOL BRB.

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alright im back again, LOL too busy the WHOLE DAY (i will blog again about today next time!) anyways last night was a weird night. totally weird night, looks like a normal Homes night but behind all that, so many things happened. feels weird to know so many things, but refusing to admit and acting like a stranger. maybe i got too attached to people there. sigh, theres always problems where ever we are eih? anyways feeling too tired and weak to continue on. too many things on my mind now. next time :)

view of the town

alright its the time of the week again! :D i love wednesdays now cause it always feels like the end of the week ;) done with physics paper 3! :D i didnt blog yesterday cause so many things came up last minute yesterday and i was only able to come back at night! XD LOL well i did my best for physics, i swear, i did all the past years (another feeling of being released from prison) and read notes and met up with lecturers. BUT WHY PHYSICS PAPER DONT TREAT ME GOOD?? :( after the paper i was emo the whole way until my friends asked me whether i wanted to eat ice cream. and then i was :DDDD again XD LOL its the 31st btw yesterday! sooooo you all know what 31st-s means..... BASKIN ROBINS DAY :D and somemore, it was Halloween ;) and and i miss my mommy and daddy! :( even now when my dad calls, he stills wet his eyes :( its okay, another one half month to go! :D

finally tried the samurai burger! :D haha i dont really remember how it tastes like now. sorry! but i think its good lah ;))) HAHA

went out with Homies again on saturday night to eattttt PORK :P i was so happy! haha if you know me, i have malay housemates so basically i live like a malay food wise :) btw my friend was playing with my phone app so the pic wasnt by me. LOL

 heres my food! PORK BURGER :D ohhh this place is a new place in SS15 i think ;) i think the place is called Hungry Hodges. not bad lah so if you guys are near, go check out the place ;) oh yea, before the dinner, my Homes leader called me, but i was sleeping so i didnt pick up. and i literally forgot about it until the dinner cause i woke up rushing. MY GOSH then i called her and all, she was worried about  me hanging out with Homies. LOL and then the next morning i saw her, she was being  nice like normal until i found out that she was actually robbed that morning of PORK day. OMMGGGGG i felt so gulity! :((( 

feel free to drool ;P

 oh yea, my housemate went to BIGBANG concert when i was having pork. LOL i was like trying to contact her the whole time but she ignored me. LOL and she bought me souvenirs ;) she said the concert was really really good :( didnt get to go. so sad. butt i was in the same country as TOP :DDDDD HEHEHEHE

yeap, the post wouldnt be complete without selcas. HAHA as usual, church day ;)

 errr so yea had even more meals with Eric and Lawrence and all. BTW i went to popular cause my friend wanted to get something for her Halloween party, and i found out that popular is having sales! *i was running around dancing inside my mind. LOL so cheappppp and i bought 3 books ;) use a lot of money yesterday as well :( UGHHH 

instagram, "forgot how great it was to be drown in this world" ;) i was in heaven!

 one of the meals with Lawrence ;) i had so many meals this week with Eric i lazy post. HAHA 

 how can  you forget BAKINS ROBIN DAYYYYY :D i went three times yesterday with 3 different people. LOL 

i got some Halloween treats! :D i feel so loved! :D surprised as well XD

 xoxo

alright, next week is war cause i have 3 papers! and got Homes and BCCP this week :O ACTSSSCITED! :D having lunch with Eric and Lawrence again! :D this blogger thing so small already. HAHA

i used to hate it here, but im having a hard time leaving here now. with all my church friends being so nice. i cannot imagine how the separation would be like next year.

"we have to crossover spiritually and emotionally first before crossing over physically. especially for people who lives in the past, must move forward or stuck in between. the future will always be better than the past, so we cannot remain in the past". ~`Elder Daniel

nicotine, carbon monoxide, tar

IM SOOOO HAPPY NOW I'M GONNA DIEEEE :DDD hehehe bio p2 is over! WOOOOO. at least i have one less thing to worry about ;) thank God for helping me finish reading and doing past years and all. OMG i thought i couldnt finish and be depress ;) anyways so many things happened this week, but im not gonna tell you ;P haha yea got tears and laughter lah :) 

went to SS15 for dinner with Eric and Lawrence, took the chance to see my babe! :D im sooo gonna have a girls day out with her after AS and sleep over! :D bumped into Steven, bernard and joshua, talked a lot. haha

 ohhhh why have dinner with Hommies? LOL cause we wanted to play monopoly deal!  :D hehehe great game okayyyyy. been craving for this green tea for so long! AHHHHH now i feel like eating :(

 we planned to play then stop for 20 mins to study for me and Lawrence and assignment for Eric, BUT TOTAL PHAILLLL. HAHA we played for more than 3 hours. i didnt even realise the time :O i went back way after midnight that day. LOL. yess the game is that addictive XD

 then on thur, i went to eat sushi king with housemate! :D finally got pic with her, mysterious right i always talk about her but never take pic XD haha there you go! shes super nice :) like seriously, i learned a lot from her, without her, i would have hungry days and nights. haha and shes like a sister to me, teaching me about make up and stuff. LOL seriously :D i dont know what im gonna do without her next year :(

 yea so Eric and Lawrence was making fun of me, if you follow me on Insta you would know, Eric keeps looking into my phone to see the pic i have as wallpaper and Lawrence also got interested. OKAY LAH FINE I ADMIT I PUT PIC OF MYSELF OKAY. LOL. so i told them i wouldnt post any pics anymore of selca, BUT I DID cause im a girl XD HAHA 

haha Mr Mustache randomnessss ;)

 food!

 yes ive gained A LOT of weight, so im gonna go back KK and sweat it off! i dont care. its always aircond here and no jogging so yea :/ sorry body :( and also late night dinner which i used to despise but now a habit cause of sleep XD

i have permanent eye bags now. haha dont get me wrong, i sleep. in fact, i sleep A LOT. like more than 10 hours a day. haha but still, i dont know why.

 the amount of coffee i consumed is WOW. two cups a day :O for me lah ;)

 yea this is one of the reasons of the fats accumulating XD haha but itsss gooodddddd :D

 LOL i was studying for physics practical yesterday and i just found out what i did. haha theres more but i think i misplaced the papers. haha my lecturer super lah :D

 HEHEHEHE how can  you not love this boyyyy? :D i cannot wait to see him :/

 i miss you girlsssss :( sometimes i just feel like throwing everything away, run back home and hang out with my loves. and go on holidays :) and just be girly again. no more being tough, holding back and being protective and aggressive. just letting go. 

 haha i told Eric that i would burn my books, past years to be exact, but he stopped me. LOL. this book has caused me sleepless nights, stress, cups after cups of coffee, energy and joy. yeap it rob me most of my joy. seriously, when i finished marking, i felt like i was just released from prison XD

 hehehehe my loveeee <3 :d=":d" day="day" made="made" my="my" p="p">

hanging too much with church friends, feels like i see them everyday! XD haha but its funnnn :) and and Homes was great last week! laughed and laughed so much. haha btw i learned so much during this week in church and with friends. dont focus on your problems, focus on God! :D

" have a different spirit! dont miss out your purpose. stop murmuring, complaining and set your spirit apart! we forfeit ourselves if we murmur, complain or take things for granted". Ps David

grenade

alrighttttt ;) helllooooo :P im pretty happy cause cause chem p3 is over ;) but i think i didnt do that well for both math and chem cause i didnt have that feeling. but oh well :/ i knew this was coming already since ive been out the whole weekend. so sorry mom and dad. 

my super free weekend that was suppose to be filled with hours of studying started with a random outing with these people :) i cannot believe my church friends misunderstood that greg, dan and bernard are my bf =.= that is so wrongggg XD

i was actually suppose to have lunch with my housemate but apparently KK people called out and then my church friends called as well =.= so had to cancel on my housemate :( SO SORRY. and went lunch with church people :) HAHA even though it was only 3 of us. gosh it was really fun. the things that we talk about, then we play MONOPOLY DEAL. THIS GAME ROCKSSS :DD haha i have one at home but didnt get to play with it. when i get back, IMMA SO GONNA GET EVERYONE ADDICTED TO IT LIKE HOW MY TWO GAY FRIENDS DID XD HAHA then we were playing and playing until evening that Eric asked whether i wanted to join them for dinner. KOREAN SAMGYUEOPSAL OKAYYY. LOL of course i said yesss. LOL then i went back and an hour later, we were on our way to Ampang for dinner. LOL by the time we got there, it was already 9 XD longgggg and funneh ride. the food was really good but burned my wallet lahhh. LOL then church the next day again and dinner again with Homies at night XD we see each other too much :X

stole this pic from my friend's fb XD haha i was too shocked at the amount of food coming that i didnt really take a lot of pics. LOL i was amazed okay, the table couldnt even fit the food. and it just kept coming :O my friends were just eating and eating and i was just staring at the amount of food. LOL i ate like halfway then i KO already. LOL and my friends were still eating! OMG how do people eat that much? see that seafood soup on top? ITSSS SUPER :) and thats actually after i ate it XD haha my friends gave me the look cause i didnt finish :(

 i was like super stressed out with my exams but Homies really made me feel better. haha the things that we talk about XD i was literally laughing like mad when i read this :D

if you didnt get the convo, its about a cartoon which i yet been forced to watched also. haha this is the mascot i think XD

 one thing that is good near college is this! Nyonya nasi lemak :D the only one thing i can say is nice XD yesss my housemate really can eat :D two plates, still okay okay for her and shes very small. so unfair right? XD

hehe i found a new nice app ;)

alright, dinner with Homies again! :D

btw, THANK YOU SO MUCH PEOPLE FOR WISHING ME :D for the many many prayers as well ;) i know i didnt reply or i scared you guys off but the wish i really am grateful! :D my phone was literally ringing the whole night before and the next morning before chem ;) so yea your wishes, im really super thankful ;) THANK YOU!

God, help me in every paper that im gonna sit, every word that im gonna write and every thought that im gonna think. you will be there helping me through with the answers, may all answers be from You. give me Your confidence, fearlessness, boldness, strength and peace. i need Your power and peace to dwell in me. every single thing that i studied will remain in my brain and only leave after the papers. relieve my stress and calm my fears. i know that Youre gonna be there with me, guiding me every single way ;) thank You once again. i pray for all  my other friends who are taking as well, may You give them insight, wisdom, knowledge and peace as well. bless me oh Lord. Amen.